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"Sajna ke sajde mein itna rehne lage... how i ended up in this condition in real life. Something that i never expected from myself. And how i love being that way for you. Saman i hope you see love in every single thing that i do."

"Darling can i be your favorite... never thought i'd actually be your favorite. Ah this will never get old. How we were passing sticky notes that day. i remember your smile. We weren't even close. But i was so comfortable with you. How this song will always be sth precious between us. But btw darling, can i be your favorite? 🧸✨"

"Mene pathar sai jinko banaya sanam... How this line always reminded me of you. How the emotions that came to me after listening to this were always soo so so strong. I admire how i found a way to you through sth i like... songs. I love when sth so random in my life reminds me of you. It gives me a reminder of how much you're a part of my world."

"Saiyyan tohe aese mai niharu... you'd never know how much iam obsessed with this song. It gives me peace. It's way too beautiful to even exist. I find myself deeply in love with it. And then once again this song was sth that reminded me of you. And everytime i'd play this song, close my eyes, and your face would appear. You look so beautiful. And i find myself falling for you once again.❤️🪐"

"Kabhi aesa bhi ho robaru tum betho... that day when we were robaru. That heavy feeling. our hearts beating fast. that utterrly odd expression on your face. how you went completely silent. it was saying alot. How our world just stopped in that moment yet the world around us didn't stop. How we had alot going on with in us. You were there but i couldn't even move myself. i would look at you by the side of my eye. it was hard to make myself look just fine while my piece of existence inside me was bursting. I was worried and exicted. That day would be the biggest turning point in my life and i believe in yours as well. The day i first held you like that and everything just changed. how that you so weak at that time but still you managed to hold me as tight as possible."

"langhdi nai akh si jo maari, goriye.. ni sachi udon disde si taare, goriye... when i listened to this song for the first time idk how but it immediately just took me to you. this song has the strongest ever feeling. that idk flirty type feeling. i have no specific word to explain the feeling this song brings to me but yes there is sth about it. our random encounters in corridors, those eye contacts, how you just got me in love this deeply, the power of your eyes... hayee pura ni tu keher guzare, goriye."

"all my love is gone... going back to the time when you weren't quite aware of my existence. but oh how i always knew you. it was class 9, not really sure about this but if not then why would we be in the same class. you were with shifa and i was alone sitting there looking at you. kinda embarrassed to say this but i was jealous(not in a bad way). my friend wasn't with me. always choosing others over me. i looked at you. laughing, having fun and going crazy. it was beautiful. not to mention the desire in my heart to get to that place, to that seat next to you. desire to be with you. i had this song in my mind at that time. was singing it quietly... now look i got to that seat next to you.prolly even closer than just the seat next to you. how surprising life can be sometimes. "

"cuz i'd never treat me this shitty... on a random tuesday when i listened to this song and it clicked something inside me. i heard you. it was just a song. but i saw sth else in it. as if it was you complaining, saying all those lines. that hit really hard. and had me listening to it non stop. those lines 'when iam away from you iam happier than ever' oh how i found that as the truth. were you happy without me? would you be the happiest without me? 'all that you did was make me fucking sad' this line was not something small as well and how ridiculous it is that this is true... and in the end what i did 'just fucking leave me alone', i stayed away from you. cuz this was what i saw you saying to me. was this what you wanted me to do? "

"i never knew somebody like you...not only was this song simply just reminding me of you that you actually just made a video on it and now iam stuck for months. i love this song. and i love you. maybe one day you'd let me have that video. oh how badly i want it. please...can i just have it? never have i ever cared about who you made that for or any other thing related. all i cared about was that most beautiful girl there. that fork in your hand. that pretty smile. the lyrics. the lip sync. the position. oh god everything. i still remember how i watched that video again and again. goodness."

"iam feeling fantastic...what if you never told me to watch this series. how badly you wanted me to watch it. i listened to this song for the first time. and yes since then it always had this emotion hidden deep in the words, in the music, in the vibe.i loved it. it always led me to you. i'd listen to this song and a smile would immediately appear on my face. yes it was because this song reminded me of you. i started imagining us on this song. you and me, oh hot hot we actually are. and this song feels like us. i truly just love this song alot. but don't you think that we look a little too good together, a little too hot. ohh myyy we are so hot, indeed we are. "

"lies tell me lies baby tell me how you hate me...you ended up making my favorite song yours as well. oh how that one video is too much engraved in my blood atp. only if you could ever know how much iam obsessed with just a video of yours. there is just sth about it. maybe the lyrics hit hard. or maybe it was just that smirk. oh how that thing actually just turns me on. and does sth really bad to me. or was it bcz you newly came back and that video did sth. maybe triggered my emotions or sth did happen. oh of course it did sth. i have watched it alot. and i can watch it a billion more times. what was the reason behind that smirk? why that song? "wish you never dated me ", would you be wishing sth like this? this video holds alot."

"anso mere bethe hain na jab woh hamse kehte hain na dost banke rehte hain na...takes me back to that day when you actually just proposed me this idea that we should forget about everything and just go back to being friends. were we ever even friends? oh how you were so desperate knowing well that you yourself can't survive that way. would you want to be my friend? would you want to be normal and forget everything? oh how cruel it was to ask for such a thing. how could you even say sth like that. these lyrics. yes they are perfect for that moment. and how funny that i was actually listening to this song those days. hits even more hard. oh how badly it hurt when you said that we should end things and try to be friends "

"scared to take a breath...i love how peaceful it is to have you tight against my body, or you calmly laying there on top of me. how i feel worried that you might move your head. my breath might cause you some kind of disturbance.i love having you there. feels like finally the missing piece of some puzzle was found. you belong there saman. you belong to me. i want you be there forever. i want you to have that peace.i hope the warmth of my body and arms around you heal every thing that was broken. i love how you just melt right there. you look like a baby. totally unaware of the cruel world. just there without any worries. having your best time. "

"you broke me first...once again. i hear you in this song. behind every word i see you. it is always you. why don't you just say things to me on my face. why coming and saying all this through songs. or maybe it is just some curse that follows me with every song i listen to. "could you tell me where'd you get the nerve" umm again it is just you. i can hear these words in your voice. they be ringing in my ears. oh iam just out of words to explain this song. how did it come to this..."